Now don’t go thinking you know what this is about…
I don’t want kids. Right now for sure, but I really feel like I lean more toward the EVER side of the issue. I just don’t have any positive thoughts, opinions, or views of children, the lifestyle that children require, or what having a child will do to my body. I know this instantly makes me super unpopular, but whatever.
I have a good friend who is pregnant, and she’s had a really tough pregnancy, which is another problem… what if things aren’t ‘sunshine and rainbows’? Now that she’s having a baby, our group has turned from “eh, kids… maybe in 7 years” which I could cope with because that would give me long enough to really feel like we lived, to “ooh, babies!” It makes me nauseous just thinking about it.
Another friend from church announced that she is pregnant today which means babies are further infiltrating another group.
I’m going to be left behind by every single person that I’m friends with, and I’m not okay with this. I’m going to be the one that isn’t included because I don’t have a baby. My thoughts won’t revolve around breast feeding, doctors appointments, toys, baby clothes, and play dates. They’ll stop coming out because babysitters are expensive. There will be no more impromptu gatherings or outings.
It all ends.
And it’s way closer than I’d like it to be.