And So I Did

Currently 9-14

Hello friends. How in the world is it the middle of September? I can’t figure out where time is going, and why I can’t seem to keep up with it. Here’s a glimpse at what I’ve been up to lately.
reading: Unfortunately nothing much. I have flipped through the latest Better Homes and Gardens, but I didn’t even really READ it. :(

watching: As a couple, we’ve flown through Awkward. which, if you haven’t watched you totally should. As a me, I’ve started Gilmore Girls over, because it is light and it makes my heart happy. I’ve been in short supply of happy heart things lately, so I’m determined to find more. As a wife, I’ve been watching a whoooole lot of football. :)

listening to: Pretty much only classical music on Spotify. I’ve figured out that I can’t study or super focus at work with music on with words (I tend to type what I’m  hearing), but I’m loving the calm classical music.

obsessing over: What am I not obsessing over, really? I’ve got a house stuff wish list 700 miles long, a new fall wardrobe desire, new workout clothes, new this new that, old this old that, FALL omg, pumpkins, baking, snuggling, short hair cuts, all of it. So much to obsess over.

shopping for: I haven’t been shopping much, but now that I’m officially down about 15 lbs, I’ve got to get new pants. Which is exciting and daunting at the same time.

wearing: baggy clothes… new ones are expensive, yo.

learning: real estate, nuff said

thinking: A lot about a lot. My 26th birthday is upcoming, and I’m really struggling with it. I am having a hard time knowing that I’m on the tail end of my twenties, and I never thought I would be having this crisis. It feels to me much like an existential crisis. I’m questioning every thing and I’m guaranteed to be driving my friends and Jake crrraaaazzzzyyy with the emotional break down. I’ve deleted facebook from my phone so I can stop with the comparisons and debbie downer avalanche that is facebook.

bothered by: My negative perception of myself, where I am, and my self deemed “success” rate or lack there of. Also, really really really bothered by the general lack of compassion that seems to be taking the nation by storm.

eating: mostly clean, except for this weekend, but hey. It’s life.

drinking:  lots of water, with grapefruit oil in it to break up the monotony, la croix when I can’t handle regular h2o any more, beer because it’s football season, HOT CHOCOLATE because it’s been cold the last couple mornings.

wasting time on: absolutely everything. I’m really struggling with feeling like I’m using my tim well. I think I need to get back on a routine and I’ll start feeling better.

loving: the cool weather, even though it’s not here to stay quite yet. Fall, I am ready for you.

praying for: A good friend lost her mother this weekend. I’m sending love, prayers, and comfort to her and her family. I can’t imagine the heartache they must be feeling. Take a moment and send a few prayers or positive thoughts their way, if you don’t mind.

working on: self reflection, self love, self acceptance, happiness, routine, success

looking forward to: completing the real estate class so that I can finally move forward with this goal and take control of my destiny.