I have always struggled, and I supposed I probably always will struggle with comparing others lives to my own, while fully being aware that I’m only seeing the public face of their lives. It’s something I tell myself not to be upset by, but I can’t always fight off the inadequate feelings.
Whether it be the sad pit in my stomach when I see someone with something I so desperately want but can’t quite afford or justify spending the money on, or a fabulously designed home, or flawless wardrobe. Most days I’m very happy with all the wonderful things I DO have, and I so appreciate the fact that we don’t have a “just swipe it” mentality. Although, most days I would run, not walk, to Lululemon and buy all the things if I could. ;) I know that waiting for the real money to be there will be better than paying it off for months.
Sometimes life is tricky. It’s not hours filled with simple decisions, it’s a constant flood of if-then decisions. Life would be so much easier if everyone operated under the same opinions as myself, but then they say that life would be boring. Who knows? All I know is… I’m always right! Haha! Poor Jake.
Most days I want to do it all and be it all and rock it and I just feel like I fall short. I feel like I’m sliding into mediocrity and that is just depressing to me. I don’t want to be complacent with what I’m doing or where I’m going, and I don’t want to just float through life. I want to take life by the horns and I want to own it. I want to have a life filled with adventures and fun and I want to feel successful and I want to know that I made my life all it could be.
Here’s to hoping I find my wild adventure soon.