I am a nut about writing lists, making schedules, and generally wasting ink and paper. The problem with all of these perfectly laid out paper plans is that NONE of them ever materialize. Ever.
I’m forever finding grocery lists that I stuck somewhere or that I forgot about, or forgot something on, even though it was written on the paper right in front of me. *sigh*
I want to go to the gym, work, bake, make dinner, and walk the dog every night. Countless times I’ve sat down and scheduled out the days by the minute, so that I can see that it IS possible to get everything done… however, I never stick to the schedule. I’m like the least organized organized person you’ll ever meet. It’s a problem… really.
I’m also not motivated… like at all. I’ve tried the ‘rewards’ for small achievable goals, with big rewards at the end goal. I’ve tried withholding things. I’ve tried writing it down, I’ve tried telling people, I’ve tried hanging my goals on the fridge, I’ve tried everything. I just can’t seem to DO anything productive. I also don’t have any drive to keep going when things get hard. For example: I signed up to run a half marathon, paid my $55, and found a training plan. Have I actually followed through with the plan once? No. Seriously, the half is Oct 26th, and I have no progress to show for it. I’m failing at my goals, and failure is my biggest fear.
What?! Who does this? This can’t be just me, can it?
I think that I’m afraid of not not achieving, of disappointing myself, therefore I don’t even try. If I don’t try, then I can’t fail, except that’s like failing at life… I don’t want to coast through life. I want to be awesome.
Does anyone have any advice for how to motivate myself for just about EVERYTHING. Except eating… I do a pretty good job of remembering to eat. :/
Happy Friday, y’all! Enjoy the three day weekend, drink an extra drink, and watch some football!